It was during that time that my "Higher Self" asked me whether or not I was prepared to face my greatest fear. I said: Yes! Maybe a little too fast in retrospection. What was my greatest fear? The fear of not being able to provide for my family. The fear of not getting enough money. It manifested in some inequity in my life. I became upset if my children stayed too long at the telephone or under the shower, etc. So I decided to 'face that fear.' And than it came with full force. I was accused about something at school which was not true, but I couldn't prove it. Circumstances proceeded very quickly. I came before a review board and was fired without any financial allowance or compensation. So I asked my Divine I AM Presence: "Is this what you meant?" And yes it was. This situation lasted for one year till the end of 1998. The inflow of money came now from different directions. I could borrow some cash from the bank; my wife had a freelance job as an interpreter; my mother lend me some money; I took temp jobs and I could even go to my beloved Bridge to Spiritual Freedom in the U.S. because they sent me a flight ticket. So I was reassured, because I realized I was not dependent on a specific job.

However the so-called 'dark night of the soul' did not only cost me my job, but also my marriage and my house. This was also the completion of my test. I had another meeting with the review board. This time I was exonerated and got my money back with retrospective effect. So I could rent an apartment, buy furniture and start a new life.